p/s: Pls ignore my grammar. I dont learned it very well, and i dont like it and until now i dont really understand haha. That's why im not an english teacher. Rojak is my middle name. Yeah

Wehuu lama tak menulis ( read: merapu) dalam ni. I'm still stuck with the same sky guy. For me, (at least for me) he seriously the best guy I ever crushed on. haha. It help me change a lot, dengan izin-NYA. No one ask me, of course not him (we never talk FTF or on social media), but by just seeing him and his way of life, then just realized im faaaaar away from the track. Thank you for being that person. Dia basic agama hebat. Tapi tak straight dalam menegur org which makes people want to get closer to him. In the other way, he attract people instead of mendesak which makes people tak selesa. 

Di mata aku (ke sebab aku suka) mmg lah dia hebat. Maksud aku, akhlak and peribadi dia, mmg aku salute (disclaimer:apa yang aku nampak shj). Kalau nak banding dengan aku ni, mmg dia pandang pon tidak lah kan. Bila aku tgk dia, aku selalu ingatkan diri sendiri "phew,banyak lagi benda nak kena improve ni, camni gini punya perangai teringin pulak idam lelaki soleh, gittew lol"..

And as always, I do remind my self. Yeap, I put him in my every doa. I just ask to make it easy for us. But, if not, just let this fade away. I dont really put hope to be with  him, but I put hope on Allah to make things clear. I keep remind myself. Do good, to get good, even with not the person you dream of. As Allah knows what you didnt know. Alhamdulillah for every moments whichhh makes this heart go flutter. up till now. Im comfort like this. Even from far, I dont know why, I just can feel something. It maybe just im all alone perasan from the start. hahahahaha